Are you a quitter?
This is the first time that I make this very public: I quit my job of 6 years.
It was unexpected and definitely not planned. I'm not going to go into the details, but leaving a place you've been a part of for 6 years definitely felt like a break up. It has been a month now and I'm finally okay to talk about it. I had to go through some grieving time.
I had to let go and really detach myself from the job, the people and the idea of not having "a job."
Now that I have been working for myself for about a month now, I still struggle with the idea of being self-employed. A good friend of mine had to correct me when we were having a conversation and I said Well since I don't have a job now... She immediately stopped me and told me and told me to get into the idea that I am Self-Employed. As hard as it is to believe and understand right now. She made me understand that if I don't believe it, nobody else will.
It is true, I now find myself saying I'm Self-Employed when I meet new people and when I see familiar faces that I haven't seen in a while and they ask how my job is.
Today, after a month of being out of the traditional job, I found myself having a hard day. It wasn't that I didn't do any un-productive activities, or that I didn't make any meaningful connections, in fact, it was the opposite. I attended a presentation that inspired me, had coffee with a friend, and I was able to walk home.
The simple fact to be able to walk home made me realize how grateful I should be.
Maybe I don't have any steady income coming in yet, maybe I have had to cut down on my spending, maybe I have to hold off on going on vacation. However, I am doing things I love, things that make my heart sing and things that I know will make a difference in the end.
After I walked by the Give Love wall and began a gratitude walk, I heard someone say "You aren't worth anything, until you know how much you're worth."
Hearing this made me truly think if I believe in myself.
Since I started this Self-Employed journey, I have had to explain who I am and what I do and I have had doubts, I no longer have that security blanket of a company I work for. I am now building my own personal brand and I must start believing in my story.
Stay tuned to see how this story unfolds.